Mini Mix

My newest mini mix!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=iMjZN00lhsM

Xdj rx tutorial

http://youtu.be/mpMq-_fyZuI


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Lessons in life

Part of the problem of having OCD is that it never truly goes away. One little thing can trigger a world of unneededness. The best cure for this is to know its all in your head, and it's helped me in most cases.


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Tattoo dedicated to my late Mother

The Lavender Tulip is my Mother's favorite flower, and the words on the scrolls are from our favorite church song "I have loved you with an everlasting love".

I had this tattoo facing me instead of away, as a constant reminder of my Mother's love as well as mine for her.

Adapting

It has been about 3 weeks since my Mother passed. It is still hard to get through every day, but it's a bit easier. I still miss her everyday.

Nightmares

I have been having thoughts and nightmares regarding my Mother's last few hours before her passing. It saddens me constantly when I relive it, anyone have any ideas on how to deal with these thoughts?

Mom is coming home

We are able to pick up my Mother's ashes tomorrow. It's a weird feeling knowing my mom will be with us albeit in an urn. I'm very happy that she is coming home. I will continue my tradition of saying good morning, talking about my plans, as well as saying good night and giving her a kiss. 

Ashes to Ashes

My mother's cremation is tomorrow. Today I and my family were able to see her one last time. I am at a loss for words and thoughts on how I feel about it. I know that my mother's body is just a shell now but never being able to feel her warmth and touch is something I will always miss. I have never been ashamed to have held my mother's hand, whether in public or at home. I will truly miss that feeling of a mother's touch.

Dealing with a close one's passing

It has been a very rough time since my mother passed away last Saturday. Not having her in the house, calling and yelling at me on the phone, telling me how her day was. I know she is in a better place now, watching over myself and my brothers and father. It's just so hard knowing I'll never see her again until my own passing. But with her passing I have changed my viewpoint on life. No longer will I take life step by step. Instead I will work hard and experience the things I want, as well as spending as much time as possible with my family. It's especially hard to del with my mother's passing as we were both very close. As the youngest son, I was always her baby. I remember that before she slipped into her first steps towards her passing, she told me she loves me. I will always have her voice ingrained in my head. She was my best friend, and I spent every day with her. I would never be afraid to hold her hand in public, as I felt a child should never hide their love for their parents. I'll miss the times I'd take her to her favorite restaurants, or talk to her about her favorite TV shows. I'll miss the advice she always gave me, and which she was always right. She will always be my guardian angel. I love you mom, I'll never forget you. I'll talk to you everyday, tell you my problems, my happiness, and sorrows. Thank you for everything you've ever given me in life, and all the love you have shown me.     January 11 1948 to February 21 2015 Rest in Peace  Mom 

Jan 11 1948 to feb 21 2015

You fought long and hard mom, I'm proud of you. I'll always have you in my heart. I love you.

Creepy

Does anyone else find mannequins that eBay sellers use in their product pictures terrifying?

Hospitals....

bring both joy and sadness. I admire those who work in hospitals as they can deal with both emotions.